Time

Time is just one of those things that you never really pay attention to unless you don't have enough. If you think about it, when have you ever heard someone complain that they have too much time? Well, other then maybe a sports team that is currently winning and they want the remaining time on the clock to go faster.

For me, I haven't had enough time lately. I've been working a lot of over time in the past three weeks (40 total hours of OT and still counting) and I still didn't have enough time to get everything that I wanted to complete finished by this weekend's deadline. The bad thing about it is that this wasn't the end of things. I still have a lot of stuff left over to do, but now I'll have a lot of additional things to do on top of it.

As a result of the overtime that I had to work (and not get paid for, go go being salalry!) I've barely had any time to be with my family. I've made it a point to get home before my little girl goes to bed, but considering that is at 8:45 most nights, that's not really saying much. I make it a point to read her a bedtime story, but when that's almost all of the time that I get with her during the week, it's not nearly enough.

This weekend was the thrid one in a row that I've had to go into the office, so I've basically had about 1 hour total each day to see see my daughter on week days, which gets bumped to about 3 hours each day on the weekend. It's killing me. I miss her so much. When I came home tonight from work, she gave me the biggest hug in the world. I could just feel how much she misses me.

Obviously, my wife understands what's going on much better then my daughter. I at least get an additional hour or two every day with her that we can spend together. She's getting rather frustrated though since she has to do almost everything by herself since I'm not home much. I try to do as much as I can when I get home, but there is only so much left to do when I get here.

I want to say that there is light at the end of the tunnel, but I don't know for sure. I truely believe that all of this OT is going to be over in 2-3 weeks though. By that time, everyone will have adjusted to the new system and my team shouldn't have as many critical issues to deal with. Unfortunately for me, I was the one that drew the short straw (well, it's actually because I'm the shit and can handle things by myself) so I have to go to Houston for a couple of days. So not only am I the only one on my team with a kid, but I get the honor of leaving her for a couple of days when I'm already missing her so much. I haven't even left yet and I can't stand being away from my family.

It's just tough.

It just sucks.

I guess I should just look on the bright side. Things will either get a whole lot better in the next 2-3 weeks, or the shit will hit the fan and I will get fired as a result. Either way I win since I'll get a chance to see my family again.

Thanks for letting me bitch. Although, I guess you didn't really have a chioce.